Every day, food and I have a showdown, sometimes many showdowns.
It's a constant battle to say "no" to the bad foods that surround me (because they are EVERYWHERE) and it is VERY challenging to stick to my sugar-free/low-carb plan.
Sunday at church, Mike and I went into the gathering area between the two services. I was hungry, but of course, I KNEW there wouldn't be anything I could eat there. I mean, how likely is it that I'd find a plate of veggies and dip, maybe some cheese slices or a tray of deviled eggs sitting there? Noooo... I was greeted by pink cupcakes adorned with sprinkles, huge chocolate chip cookies, coffee cake and some kind of bread everyone was raving about. Mike opted for a pink cupcake and a piece of coffee cake. I wished I had thrown some string cheese and almonds in my purse that morning!
So I sat there having my little inner dialogue... eyeing the pink cupcake. A couple of things that always stick out in my mind at times like this... "Would you rather have the pain of deprivation or the pain of regret???" And, a quote from my Facebook friend and low-carb guru Sugar Free Sheila, "Would you rather have a hot fudge sundae or a hot body?"
I ignored the pink cupcake, knowing it would only bring me a few minutes of satisfaction and then the customary sugar crash followed by regret/depression. A bit extreme, but really...it's pretty much like that.
Yesterday I was struggling with food cravings quite a bit, but did not give in. I kept thinking about brownies, hot fudge and sugar, sugar, sugar. Candy and cookies abounded at work. Some of you are probably thinking, "ah, what the hell, have a brownie. What can it hurt???" Well, apparently it can hurt a lot. I've tried doing "cheat days" and it appears I cannot control myself and end up WAY overdoing it. If I could find a way to "cheat" in moderation, I just may do it... but so far my cheat days have ended in severe stomach upset, headaches and depression.
I know I feel so much better when I avoid sugar and junk carbs. I am more stable and have more energy. I also know that my attention to diet is the reason why I've only gained 5 lbs. at 19 weeks pregnant. By not letting myself get out of shape now, I am going to be REALLY thankful after the baby comes and I don't have a bunch of weight to lose!
Well, I made it through my long run this past Saturday! I did 8 miles and it had been probably a month or more since I've run that far. It wasn't too bad but the last mile was tough and I had to walk a few times, but I made it through. Wow, was I sore the next day! I reeeeeallly felt it. I just need to keep it up now, I am in a good position for my upcoming races. Maybe ten miles this coming weekend?
So every day is a battle with food - I'm sure today will be no different - but the rewards are great and I am always glad when I stay strong and don't give in!